Motel Sacramento

Bright sun, bright blue sky
A cool breeze that will dry out your eye
Feel the mist of the river nearby
On the road to redemption, rebirth, then you die

Curved road, cool to the touch
Windows down, not awake very much
Passing cars as you think about lunch
One more day until your weekend starts

Palm trees off in the distance
A perfect silhouette for a photo opportunity
Pull off to the side, postpone your ride
This is the only chance you may get
Let's all go to the Motel Sacramento

The sun sets, everything turns grey
Your sweat fades and your thoughts dissipate
Sketchy characters emerge from the shade
But you've got your plans in motion

Door locked, peek through the blinds
Faint sirens with red and blue lights
Another victim in a city full of crime
But this is the way it's always been

Telephone poles off in the distance
A perfect silhouette for a photo opportunity
Come out of your shell, walk around this hell
This is the only chance you may get
Let's all go to the Motel Sacramento

Copyright 2014 © Stephen Gedney

Heatwave Goosebumps

Led me astray one too many times again and again
I see those streets are waiting for me to walk them
So absent of a mind with no compassion
Heart yearns for some sort of satisfaction

This pain will hurt you like no other that you've felt
Your smile sill appears when I close my eyes
Possibly I've burned too many bridges
I keep looking back, but I know I must move forward

Free form flowing thoughtless rants of repetition
All the crystalized resin has disintegrated from my brain
There's a slight reflection gazing back from out the window
Leaves have dried up and now become mulch

No victim, just a pillar under marble
Not a crutch, just a hopeful little spider
I walk endlessly for miles until I lose it
Since you've been here, my heart has been gone

Copyright 2014 © Stephen Gedney

Feelings

Second guess, will I get another chance?
Why does my heart come before my head?
I'm so sensitive to the ones I love
Why have I given up my dreams instead?
I know this is not your fault
I only have myself to blame
The secrets that lurk inside my skull
Are rotting the important parts of my brain

It's useless to think I can dig my way out
Without hurting you like you've been before
To make myself happy is like amputation
Like picking at an open sore
But when I look in the mirror I don't recognize
The face that glares right back at me
I'm a shadow of my former self
Existing in a state of melancholy

Never been a sinner in all my life
Except when I don't do what's best
I'll go on living like a lobotomized patient
With hardly a beating coming from my chest
And yet, I'll be there just like I promised
But it's hard to think it's what you want
Like maybe you've settled to avoid past mistakes
And inside you're feeling endless distraught

Sometimes I think I'm afraid to be alone
But other times I welcome it so
The pain and agony of not knowing the unknown
Or enjoying being solo
This is a poem not meant to be read
But more just my thoughts pouring out
Don't take it so literal or personal, please
And don't cast a shadow of a doubt

Copyright 2014 © Stephen Gedney

Trying Something New

If I had unlimited funds
If I didn't make the wrong choices
I'd cross the pond seeking adventure
I'd go anywhere in this world

If the sun was never rising
If our fun was always free
I'd shoot a hole into the skyline
I'd go anywhere in this world

If all hope has ceased to exist
If all the seas had turned to black
I'd be the only one out on the water
I'd go anywhere in this world

If I was smart, I'd be open-minded
If I wasn't lonely, I'd be there for you
I'd fill my lungs with salty ocean
I'd go anywhere in this world

I'd dehydrate in the desert
I'd freeze from polar winds
I'd slide down falling rocks on crumbling mountains
I'd stick to fresh frozen black tar
For you I'd give all my poisoned blood
For you I'd share a river bed
For you I'd wreck emotionally
For you I'd break my heart

Copyright 2014 © Stephen Gedney